notes to self. dont talk to yr lover when yr pmsing and have had a stressful week full of driving and damn global violence. she is wonderful to me, and i am so fuckin fortunate. yet i have this mental masochism layer that sucks arse. i hope to employed with insurance program that i can seek out mental therapy. or ill just visit my tattoo artist; he is my buddy and listens and gives huggs. wanting to huggle chicago right now. so this mental masochism is what keeps me going at the same time cuts me. ahhhh thank goodness for friends!!! am grateful for old and my new friends. CHEERS!!!
